Wednesday, June 3, 2020

maybe he's born with it.. maybe it's faceapp

So this dude does a series on youtube that is NOT transgender related.

He reviews solar stuff.  Right off the bat I'm like "Wow, does he have a feminine face!".  After watching his video, I scrolled down the comments, and like the 4th one is like "your eyes are way too pretty for a dude".  So my Litmus test is usually running someone's face through faceapp.  If you just don't have the facial features, the filter isn't going to help.  But WOW, does he make an incredible looking female.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Half Life - Alyx

It's been long known that many transgendered / crossdreamers really enjoy video games as a tool to immerse themselves into a female character.  My earliest experience was probably playing chun-li on street fighter.  More recently (maybe 3 years ago) I really enjoyed creating a female character in GTA 5 and playing online as a "female", and enjoying making my somewhat realistic character move around.  Ever since VR has made a comeback I've been waiting for someone to make that female experience now that the graphics are good and the input is better.  Well about a month ago Valve surprised everyone with a VR version of Half life, and instead of the male character you usually play, you now play as the female sidekick Alyx.  I love this on so many levels, the fact that you're now a strong female role, the fact that the graphics are really good so even though the hands are mostly covered (by really cool electronics), they are undoubtedly female fingers.  My only hope is that someone makes a mod to make her nails longer.  Anyway, the minimum specs are pretty steep, but I plan on upgrading my computer soon so I'm ready when it comes out in March.

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

Inside You

So I stumbled on this movie called "inside you" from 2017.. It's about a couple that switch bodies through some sort of sex toy they find at a shop.  You can stream it for free with limited commercials here:

So a few takeaways *spoiler alert, duh!*
1. Acting was halfway decent.. when they switch bodies, the guy becomes slightly more effeminate, the girl becomes only slightly more dudish.
2. They both want to explore their bodies.. the guy becoming his girlfriend takes a bit longer
3. Both of them do very sterotypical things that hollywood would like you to think each gender would want to do.. IE the girl who becomes the boyfriend really wants to write things with his pee, she really wants to experience a blowjob (multiple times).  The guy who becomes the girlfriend has a tough time dressing and putting on makeup (I suppose that could be true).  At one point, they have sex with each other which I've never seen any TG-film really address.  At first I was like "Ehh, really?  if you swapped bodies with someone, could you really have sex with yourself?"  But the more I thought about it the next day, maybe it wouldn't be as hard as you think.  First off, you'd be in a different body, and the hormones would change your perspective.  Also I think if you saw your body from outside, you'd have a different view of yourself than when you look into a mirror.  Seeing yourself in 3d would look different than a flat mirror, and you'd have a different viewpoint

One last stereotypical thing they showed, the guy in the girlfriend's body goes to a bar, and of course gets flirted with right away.  Women don't automatically get picked up on, though I will admit some guys can be very persistent.  Right now I have one guy that messaged me on KIK linked from my fetlife account (that I gave up on the conversation because it wasn't going anywhere) has literally messaged me "hi" twice a day, nearly everyday for about the past 2 weeks.  When I finally opened up the app (as apposed to just reading the notice dragged down from the top), he suddenly starts messaging me new things like "are you horny?".  So about that... One, if I haven't responded to your 24 messages of hi, what makes you think I'll suddenly change my mind?  Like that's borderline stalker behavior.  And two, the fact that you pay that close attention to when I've actually read your messages makes it even creepier that you monitor conversations that closely on Kik.

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Taylor swift - You need to calm down

So I've always not liked taylor swift.  While her songs are catchy, most of them are about how terrible men are.  It got so pathetic that at one point Seth Green made fun of her on family guy.

When Jack Molay tweeted a link to it this week, my first reaction was "Oh here we go, clearly she's jumping on the LGBTQ bandwagon".. Then I read everyone that was in it, and I go "shit, she's legit.  No way all those people would sign on to be in her video if she wasn't being sincere".  Ru Paul and Ellen are HUGE celebrities.  The song itself has a great message, but the video makes it much more clear.  It's showing the typical trump fans who want to hate everything.  The set is a trailer park that reminds me that scene in "too wong foo thanks for everything" when they have the watermelon picnic (very vibrant and colorful)

At the very end, taylor swift and Katy Perry make up after their long fight.  It's really heart warming and I've watched it over and over.

Also at the end she posts a link to get congress to pass a bill protecting the LGBTQ community and it's already surpassed it's original 300,000 goal

Sunday, June 9, 2019

Black Mirror - striking vipers (netflix)

Sooo... this episode was incredible.


If you haven't seen black mirror, it's basically like twilight zone but with futuristic tech.  So in this episode, a couple friends play a street fighter like game called "striking vipers" as teens.  11 years later, they meet again and the one friend gives him a gift for his birthday, it's an updated version that's "immersive".  So they both log in one night (the guy that gave the gift has already tried it out), but the other friend is shocked at how realistic it is.  Well as most dudes, one always chooses the female character.  Usually they say it's because they would rather be staring at a girl than some dude.  So they both start fighting in the game, and at some point the girl character ends up on top of the dude.  There's a pause, and then she ends up kissing her friend.

The dude backs away, wiping off his mouth.  He's embarrassed he just kissed his friend, so he exits game.  A few days go by, and they both log back into the game.  You assume they are both going to ignore what happened before as they creep towards each other ready to fight, but then they both let down their guard and run to each others arms (this time having sex).

  So this goes on and on, the one dude starts to hide this from his wife (plays at night while she's sleeping).

At one point, he asks his friend (who's a girl) what it feels like.  He's like "craaazy! if being a man is like a guitar solo, being a woman is like a whole orchestra!"

Finally the one friend demands they kiss in person to see if there are any feelings, to know for sure if they're just gay.  Turns out there aren't any feelings, the only feelings are in the game.

Eventually the married friend confesses, and they strike a deal that one day a month he gets to have sex in the game if she can go on a date with someone.

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

AI angel - virtual character

So I have no idea how this ended up in my youtube feed, but none-the-less it caught my eye.  So the title is "AI sees humans for the first time", followed by "AI sees humans for the second time".

Now I have 2 reactions right away:
1. It's not AI, it's someone using some sort of motion capture system to effectively create a digital puppet.  It's not facerig because this has a very custom background and the movement are far more advanced.
2. That voice sounds... somewhat authentic, but there's something not quite right about it.  Could be a girl, could be a guy doing a voice.

Whoever it is, they certainly have an entertaining personality.

Did some digging, if you go back in the channel there's a bunch of videos of some guy named rogue shadow who apparently spends a lot of time in VR, even has one where he's showing a virtual night club he worked on in unity.  He has one video just interviewing other users on VR chat (a program where you can change your character and just walk around and talk to other people around the world).  He asks them a simple question, why do you come here?  Most just want a general escape from their real life, a few admit they do it to escape gender dysphoria.  He has one video that made a news story where one user started to have a seizure as you saw him shake on the floor virtually, and most of the other users were generally concerned but had no way to help him until he could start to speak again.

Anyway, whoever this is started a twitch channel where they game (and perhaps do more omegle video chats again).  They just started a patreon page like 2 weeks ago and they already have $730/month in supporters.  I wouldn't be surprised if this becomes a career.