So in the last month or so, I've been on a bad cycle. I've been masterbating, sometimes more than anyone should. I don't know if it's the male in me (ahh, just get it overwith.. or the "your only cheating yourself if you don't jerk one off"), or if I'm trying to avoid my feelings by removing the urges?
Probably in the past week, I've been holding back. I watch porn, I read fantasies.. heck, I'm dressed in a frilly maid outfit as I type this
I think is due to 2 things:
1. This video (which talks about really doing some self discovery and figuring out what you want to be). She actually has a lot of great personal story and advice videos:
And this blog posting by Amnesia sparkles, who talks about how crossdressing can completely change your outlook, how you feel, how you act, the release of endorphins, etc etc which I'm finding out to be very true: