Monday, November 26, 2012

my boyfriend does my makup tag.. My girlfriend does my makeup tag?

So I'm sure by now you've seen the videos.. girl asks the boyfriend to do her makeup.  Perhaps because it's silly, perhaps it's so the boyfriend can see just how difficult it is for women to look good:

Of course Jenna Marbles (famed youtuber) does one, which is really funny to watch  
And apparently, there's also the opposite, "I do do my boyfriend's makeup":  
I sorta wish he'd shaved, he's kinda cute

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

a few videos.. thanks to rachel's haven

there's a website I'm member of, and I found these great videos


Thursday, November 15, 2012

facial expressions translated to video games

Although there have been some neat webcam plugins for logitech, nothing on this level of tracking.  Basically with a kinect camera, it would seem that with the right software it can track your facial expressions in real-time.

It even talks about how this could one day be used for world of warcraft or second life.  I can only imagine how cool it would be if your second life avatar could mimic your facial expressions, especially having one of the opposite gender.  I find it especially interesting that in his demo, he does briefly use a female avatar

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

transgender switch - so far away

I decided to search for this topic again (the famed Dmrt1gene that keeps males... men).  Here's another clear article:

"This discovery is a breakthrough for genetic researchers and may have implications for transgender and intersex individuals.
This work shows that sex determination in mammals can be surprisingly prone to change and must be actively maintained throughout an organism's lifetime,"

However, not only is this still early research on rats, gene therapy in general is not without it's drawbacks, as discussed on the wikipedia page:

  • Short-lived nature of gene therapy – Before gene therapy can become a permanent cure for any condition, the therapeutic DNA introduced into target cells must remain functional and the cells containing the therapeutic DNA must be long-lived and stable. Problems with integrating therapeutic DNA into the genome and the rapidly dividing nature of many cells prevent gene therapy from achieving any long-term benefits. Patients will have to undergo multiple rounds of gene therapy.
  • Immune response – Anytime a foreign object is introduced into human tissues, the immune system has evolved to attack the invader. The risk of stimulating the immune system in a way that reduces gene therapy effectiveness is always a possibility. Furthermore, the immune system's enhanced response to invaders that it has seen before makes it difficult for gene therapy to be repeated in patients.
  • Problems with viral vectors – Viruses, the carrier of choice in most gene therapy studies, present a variety of potential problems to the patient: toxicity, immune and inflammatory responses, and gene control and targeting issues. In addition, there is always the fear that the viral vector, once inside the patient, may recover its ability to cause disease.
  • Multigene disorders – Conditions or disorders that arise from mutations in a single gene are the best candidates for gene therapy. Unfortunately, some of the most commonly occurring disorders, such as heart disease, high blood pressure, Alzheimer's disease, arthritis, and diabetes, are caused by the combined effects of variations in many genes. Multigene or multifactorial disorders such as these would be especially difficult to treat effectively using gene therapy.
  • Chance of inducing a tumor (insertional mutagenesis) - If the DNA is integrated in the wrong place in the genome, for example in a tumor suppressor gene, it could induce a tumor. This has occurred in clinical trials for X-linked severe combined immunodeficiency (X-SCID) patients, in which hematopoietic stem cells were transduced with a corrective transgene using a retrovirus, and this led to the development of T cell leukemia in 3 of 20 patients.[52] One possible solution for this is to add a functional tumor suppressor gene onto the DNA to be integrated; however, this poses its own problems, since the longer the DNA is, the harder it is to integrate it efficiently into cell genomes.
In other words, unless your issue is life threatening (like cancer, or possibly parkinsons), you can probably forget about a sex change pill in your near future

Key & peele

Not sure how many of you watch this on comedy central.  These are the two guys from MadTv, and they have their own sketch comedy show now.  Two of the re-occurring characters they play are meegan and Kimmy.  Jordan Peele makes a pretty passable woman, both in looks and mannerisms (and valley girl voice).  Enjoy

new CFX mask

Since it's been 5 years, and SPFX masks STILL haven't released a young female mask, I'm always on the hunt for one.  I showed you this a while back:

They have yet another one:

What I especially like is that in the video, not only do they show you the before person's face, it's also a boy putting on the female mask (which is one concern I always had with these, how well is the mask going to follow along a male face).

Well, I certainly can't tell the difference, and although it's still going to look like a mask, it sure looks better than anything I've ever seen.  Plus you would think a female mask would almost be easier to get away with.  I mean women wear makeup, many already look un-natural, so maybe a mask wouldn't be a big deal (at least from 10 feet away anyway).

I honestly think it looks pretty damned good for $650 (hair not included)

Monday, November 12, 2012

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

once upon a time...

Hopefully there's some fans of the show

amazing gender bender photoshop blog

I'm pretty good.. but these are so lifelike it's scary, enjoy:

Here's a quickie I did.. Model + justin timberlake = Justine rikki lake

Monday, November 5, 2012

airbrush foundation

So I watched this video on genderfun's website this morning:

The part that intrigued me the most (besides seeing a boy transformed into a drag queen) was the airbrush foundation.
A. I had never heard of such a product (probably used by drag queens for years, probably used by professional makeup artists for even longer)
B. Holy crap that does an amazing job of evenly filling in a face to make it smooth and unshiny

Then I looked up pricing on that shit, $50 a can!  Then I thought "hmm.. that stuff can't be THAT magical, I bet it's foundation mixed with some type of liquid, toss in some aerosol, rape your customers.  I bet I could make my own stuff up, pop it into an airbrush (hobby ones can be bought for $20 and would last much longer)."  Well, turns out I'm right.  There's multiple videos on youtube on how to do exactly that.  There's one with a girl I watched, but it didn't look so promising (her face ended up looking greasy, like she just dunked her head in baby oil).  Then I found a video by a guy that performs on stage, and his results are not only more convincing, it's much more dramatic when he uses it to cover a birth mark on his leg:

I totally want to try this out, I think I would get back into crossdressing if I could make my face look decent.

Monday, October 22, 2012

photoshop for video

Photoshopping photos is one thing.  Imagine being able to photoshop a single frame of video, and then letting the computer do all the rest of the frames for you?  Better yet, imagine doing this to 4k video (4 times the resolution of DVD).  There's a software company that is showing off it's software:

Granted, this short 3 minute video took days to render (and I'm not even sure if that's a desktop, high-end desktop, server farm, what?).. But I would imagine if I'm just doing web quality video (say 320 x 200), I might be able to render a short one minute video.  You know where I'm going with this right?  I could film myself in drab, photoshop a single frame (clean up skin, add makeup), then let the computer finish off the frames.

I am curious how far this could take it.  I mean I'm sure it couldn't let fill in accessories (jewelry, hair), that would require it to recreate a 3d object.  I think this is simply mapping a skin surface and stretching/tilting as needed.  Not that it's an easy task, but that's just it's limitations.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Willam Belli on CSI

You know who she is.  The famous (almost as famous as Ru Paul) drag queen you see here and there, mostly online.  I think I've seen her on CSI before (when grissom was still around), and last week she showed up again in a coffeehouse mass shooting scene.  When she popped up, I'm like "I know her!", and then my wife is like "oh yea, we've seen her before in stuff", which always feels good.  Here's an animated gif of her dead body lying on the floor

Thursday, October 11, 2012

national coming out day


It's funny, I never remember this date until I start to see gay friends and gay supporters start tweeting about it... Then I think "wow, has a whole year gone by already?"... Then I think "Hmmm, maybe today is the day I should come out", then I think "My life is already stressful enough, I don't need to add this", then I think "yea, probably a good decision, especially with social media so searchable" (worry sets in about my blog).

Part of me thinks, what would be the point in coming out?  I mean, would I truly have a feeling of relief?  Like what I be like "ugh, finally I can be myself!".  It's not like I would come out to co-workers (not where I work), so it would really be to friends, perhaps family (if it leaked that far).  But then what?  It's not like I crossdress in public, heck it seems like I haven't crossdressed at home in like a few months.  So as a person that is so far seperated from the LGBT community, do I even have a right to come out?  I really wonder about that.  I mean is being a crossdreamer really a legitimate thing to come out with?

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Brace yourself (NSFW)

I know this is a bit off topic (thought slightly relevant), and I've been reluctant to post this, but feel like I have to talk about it somewhere (so why not on a transgender blog), mm hmm.  So about a month ago, I ate a brownie.. You know the kind.  Won't say how I obtained it, but it was my first "brownie".  I have to preface that with the fact that I HAVE partaken in the green stuff before.  Usually it does little for me other than make me feel happy, maybe giggly, usually just makes me tired and I pass out.  Probably the highest I ever got was one time I did it in a hotel room in vegas, then had to keep my composure as we went downstairs to gamble (I was pretty darn floaty, but could concentrate enough to seem normal).

Now I'm talking about a small piece, like thin and probably 1-1/2" x 1" (I imagine that's how it's usually made).  I didn't eat the whole thing, I ate half.  It usually takes an hour to kick in, so I ate it around 8pm. My wife went to bed, so she didn't really get to get to experience it.  Around 9pm sure enough it kicked in, but because I was on the couch and just surfing the net, it probably didn't hit me as hard.  I felt good, I felt a little more floaty, and I was getting really nostalgic.  Like I felt like I could tap into memories I hadn't thought about in a long time.  Like odd detailed stuff like remembering watching specific tv shows, and remembering laying in front of the coffee table on the floor.  Then I had this yo-yo concept in my head, over and over, couldn't figure out what the hell it meant.  I started to try to relate it to a memory.  Was it galaga? ships coming down, then swaying to the right?  I just couldn't figure it out.

Then I started to get horny.  I went to a porn site, and I didn't exactly get hard.  I was maybe half flacid, but that didn't stop me.  I was practically rubbing my penis like it were a clit, back n forth really quick.  It actually felt quite good, and a flood of memories popped into my head.  Mostly it was memories of early teen masterbation, and that feeling of a super orgasm started to fill my body.  There's just something about getting old where ejaculations start to feel like pissing on some level.  But that really good orgasm, where all your muscles contract, that's what makes sex worth it.

So I ejaculated pretty well, and I called it a night.  I couldn't turn off my brain, that night it took me a good hour or so to finally fall asleep.  I'm the type of person that can fall asleep at the drop of a hat, so this wasn't normal for me.  The next morning I reflected back on the experience, feeling almost scared to try it again.  I told my wife about it, but she couldn't quite understand what I was talking about.  She seemed to be suddenly interested in trying it again after hearing about my experience.  I told her I wasn't so sure about doing it during the week again, not only scared of the side effects, but I had stuff I wanted to get done and I knew I would be worthless in that state.  Later in the week she convinced me to try it again, and this time we went ahead and continued to work what we were working on (which was cleaning the basement).

After about an hour, it crept up on me.  This time it was really strong.  I don't know if this piece just had more in it, or it was because of my activity, but it REALLY hit me.  It felt like a distraction (if that makes any sense).  Like if someone was saying "hey! hey!" while you were trying to get something done, but you had no choice but to pay attention to that person.  I tried to resist it, pulling my concentration back in, but it was slowly taking over.  I then put my hands on my head, and suddenly my head went numb at the top.  I was trying to figure out what this feeling was, and then I realized.. I was having Major vertigo, or a mild out of body experience.  I tried to keep cleaning, but this was too distracting.  I held my head again, and experimented with how far I could take this.  Could this induce a true out of body experience? I tried hard, but at best I could describe what I felt was imagining your eyes as a pair of TV sets in a dark room, and slowly walking backwards away from them.  Your still viewing the world, but you feel detached from the experience (almost like virtual reality).  The further I got from my eyes, the fuzzier the image got too.  I started to think about what it would REALLY feel like to leave my body on a small level.  Reflecting back, I start to realize our bodies really are nothing more than vessels, just shells we use to get around.  That's not to say I don't still have the desire to have a pretty pretty woman shell, but I can finally separate the "me" from the "body me".

I then stood in a corner, and rocked back n forth, feeling like I was on an amusement park ride.  My wife just looked at me funny, clearly not having the same deep experience I was.  Then the paranoia started kicking in, thoughts of "what if this doesn't wear off?"  After 30 minutes or so of useless cleaning, it was time to go back upstairs.  I sat on the couch, not sure what to do with myself.  Finally the feeling of having to suddenly poop entered me, and I wasn't sure if I was actually going to be capable to stand up and walk over to the bathroom.  That yo-yo feeling was back, and I could finally describe what that feeling was.  Where a normal person would say want to reach their hand out to get something off a shelf, they would go directly to that point in space.  In my state, my movements were more cursive.  What I mean is, if I was to move my hand right, I would have to actually have to first go left, loop around, and then swing to the right.  This made moving very difficult and slow.  It's as if my brain's actions to movements was being wired backwards momentarily until I realized I was doing it wrong, and then corrected myself.

So I sat down, and after struggling for about 5 minutes (yes, your muscles, even in your colon have difficulty cooperating), I finally managed to push it out.  I then managed to make my way back to the couch in the living room. I sat down, still feeling massive vertigo.  It was as if riding a roller coaster, but the operator never stopped the ride.  At this point I just couldn't handle it anymore, and I could feel the vomit start to travel up my throat.  A normal person would run to the sink, but I was so out of control I couldn't get up and ended up vomiting right there on the rug.  My wife was starting to freak out a little bit at this point because your not supposed to get sick like this.  After reading a few pages from a google search, she found much worse stories (people who have eaten an entire tray of brownies and felt like they were literally in hell).  The best advice she read was to help that person to bed and sleep it off, and that's exactly what I did.  It didn't take me long to fall asleep, I knew I just wanted this feeling to go away.

So why am I bothering telling you this story?  Well:
1. So you don't overdo it if you decide to try it.  Seriously, it takes about an hour to kick in, so don't eat too much
2. If you've ever wanted to experience OBE on some level (real or not), this is the easiest method to do so.
3. It changes my whole outlook on the body transfer concept in fictionmania stories (whether it be magic or technology).  Seriously, if I was thrusted out of my body and landed in another, I think my first reaction would be to puke my guts out trying to adjust to my new body.