Monday, February 28, 2011

limitation of heels in large sizes

I must preface with this.. heels have come a long way. I remember when I first started dressing when I was 17. Your only choices of heels in 16-17 were ugly 3/4" heels like this:

Now, there's more stylish ones, but choices are still limited, and it's usually limited to what I'd like to call stripper/street walker (fuck me pumps):

There's a reason why most of these heels are made by the company (pleaser), most strippers were them. Oh if only I could have smaller feet, I mean just look at some of the yummy choices out there, it aint fair I tell you:

James franco oscars

As if it wasn't enough that he did drag for candy magazine:

In case you missed it (or don't watch shows like that) Last night he showed up at the oscars as "marylin monroe" while anne hathaway wore a tuxedo with heels. He really is adorable as a woman

Friday, February 25, 2011

real life SOX9 flip?

So I've been a member of for a while. Once in a while, I'll browse other local members. I ran across this one today:

It reads:

For those that don't know me from before, I was loveall1972. I was born male, and lived my life accordingly. I enjoyed my life as a man and was doing fine, Until.....

One day I noticed that I was experiencing pain in my pecs, and they were looking kinda puffy. I thought this weird cause I'm a thin guy, and hadn't done anything to strain myself. Some time went on and I talked to a TS friend of mine about it, and told her they were getting worse. She told me I need to go to a doctor and find out what's going on. I did that, and what I was told rocked my world to the core.

I was told that I was experiencing testicular feminization. Some unknown mechanism has turned off my SOX9 gene. This gene is responsible for hormonal control of a male's body. As a result, my testicles are turning the testosterone into estrogen, and I was starting to show the affects, and feel them as well, physically as well as emotionally. I can't take testosterone injections, cause my body will just turn it into estrogen too, and speed the whole thing up. I'm sure faster is better for most trans girls, but for me, I need time to adjust to this. As anyone would guess, this isn't the kind of thing someone approaching middle age needs to experience. I'm very confused, and somewhat fearful of what finally awaits me, but I know this is one of the best sites for supporting TS/TG people and my friends here are doing what they can to help me cope with this. My friend I first told about all of this helped me accept this was going to happen with, or without my participation. So I decided that instead of running from it, I'd embrace it, and do my best to make the best of it. Who knows, I may like it????

I'm a very nice person, I think I'll make a nice, friendly woman eventually, but having lived so long as a straight man, and NEVER having the slightest feeling of being trans, or ever dressing, or anything. It's obvious I need a lot of help.

This is exactly like what I posted not long ago:

I don't know whether to believe this or not, but who would make such a thing up? If it's true, then this is the first time I'm hearing about such a thing happening naturally in a human.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

how to get rid of a one night stand

thought this was sort of cute (no I'm not offended)

Monday, February 21, 2011

timelapse - male to female

You always see those videos (one pic a day, taken over several years). It's dramatic to see hairstyles change, or a baby grow up into a toddler and small child.. This is the FIRST one I've seen where a male to female takes photos everday so that you can quickly see the changes to the body:

Better captioning

Decided to follow along with everyone else does and use decent looking caption balloons. Found out I can get a whole brush set for photoshop, making it much easier to caption now.

PORN site virus

Some of the best photos for blogs like these are obviously porn sites (google images will only take you so far). so this morning I go to (search for images or movies, keyword, blah blah). Get through maybe 8 pages, and suddenly a pop-up window comes up for a fake "antivir". I think no big deal, then my browser stops working. Ok, time to end task (which of course isn't called antivir, but my looking at top memory usage, I figure out which one). I figure I'm done, oh no. these idiots really think they can mess with me by changing my browser to a proxy? Oh no, not that.. Oh, let me just change that back to "no proxy". It also fucked up my itunes later in the day (forgetting about this issue, and that internet explorer has it's own network settings seperate from mozilla).

Now granted, a lot of people would probably think they got a bad virus, freak out, pay best buy hundreds of dollars to fix the problem. To me, it's just sort of annoying, and quite frankly insulting that legitimate porn sites would have viruses like that on them.

I'm now trying a site called ""

Saturday, February 19, 2011


This is one of my favorite new shows on IFC channel. It's mostly just 2 characters (male and female), and sometimes there's a crossover of genders. This one in particular is great because they both swap roles.. Cacao!

Monday, February 14, 2011

transgender in a pill?

Came across this article today:

Basically it states that we aren't necessarily decided which gender we are at birth. They have done testing on rats where they discovered there are two switches (they compliment each other), but if these two are flipped, it would basically flip your gender. In fact, they say these switches are in constant battle to stay flipped the way they are.

If they could replicate this in humans, it would mean we could effectively get a shot, and our own bodies would provide all the hormones we would need to transition

What they don't really go into detail about is:
A. How long did it take for testicles to turn into ovaries
B. Were they functional genitals, or merely cosmetic? It did talk about the testis stopping production of sperm and producing eggs, however it didn't really say if those eggs were fertile. Of course, some transgender I wouldn't think sterility would be a problem.
C. Would you maintain feelings in your genitals? I mean what good is a pussy if you can't feel anything? Of course doing this naturally would probably surpass most surgeries.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

chat with a side of female persona

Back in the days of dialup (talking 1996), I was big into IRC chat. I would either be in the #crossdress chatroom talking to others, figuring out what this whole thing meant (since at the time there was so much not known about it, plus it was much more taboo then).

I would also find myself popping into a channel called #tv_sex. This was mostly guys who wanted to chat with a real transvestite/crossdresser, but sometimes you'd get other autogynapheliacs who were fans of fictionmania, and would roleplay. 9 times out of 10, you'd end up doing all writing (typing), and they'd just sit there and nod, watching this story play out in realtime, and once they came, you'd know it (user has logged off). Once in a great while, you'd get someone to participate in the story, and sometimes (in a seperate window, so as to not ruin the dialogue), thank you.. or make suggestions, which always made it more enjoyable. Those types of people would usually at least thank you before logging off (seeing how you just gave them virtual cybersex for free, you'd think that'd be the least they could do).

fast forward about 7-8 years, the internet becomes high speed. Doing videochat becomes the norm (sort of). Prior to skype, the best videochat you could have (at least on a group basis) was Cuseeme (see-you-see-me). This got dropped from windows with XP (though it IS still hidden somewhere I believe). Then I came across this new program (which was $40, or free if you didn't mind getting kicked out after 10 minutes). It was called camfrog, and it would support a dozen video windows with amazing clarity / framerate.

I remember one time getting bold and actually dressing up on camera, just to see what the reaction would be. Since the female to male ratio was really skewed (as it is on most of the internet), I of course got a ton of "private chat" windows popping up as soon as I logged in. I seemed to pass at first, and then I finally got one guy that questioned my gender. I just sort of ignored him and let my 10 minutes run out, but it was interesting to play a female role and have people believe it.

Of course today we have chatroulette, but my fear is always that it becomes public (since screengrabbing is no secret).. Something like this:

Perhaps if I do a good enough job of masking my facial features, and keep my lighting dim enough, I'd be willing to try it out sometime.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

the great shift, cheerleader edition

Hmm.. a football game is probably not the best place to be during a great shift. Son of a bitch, I'm a cheerleader!

Ok, I'll just get a nice tight shot on these cheerleaders coming out and...
What the hell? I am a cheerleader now! Dammit, why do these great shifts always come without warning?!

Dammit, I barely got a sip of my $9 beer. Now I gotta spend the rest of the game doing stupid cheers!

Ok, so seriously, when's the next great shift wave supposed to happen? Two months?!! I have to stay in this body for 2 months!!

"And on the next play I'm gonna slam into the quarterback like this", said the football player just as the wave passed by.
"Woah, what just happened? Am I a fucking cheerleader?! holy shit!"